xueting is dedicating this entry to...
her FAMILY
special thanks to my parents and aunt: for cooking such a wonderful and delicious dinner and making everything thing a success=) and also that yummy cake which is full of chocolate=D
cousins: for spending the day with me and staying over to wait until 12, count down to my birthday and we ate the yummy cake!! i lurve all of u. also, thanks for spending today's afternoon with me at chevrons and all of us were so high while singing(not forgetting our idol) :)
her FRIENDS
hugs to all those who remembered my birthday and sms-ed me. you guys rock too. special thanks to my primary school frens. sockhong, tuanyeow, jason, felicia, grant, layteng, mikhail and kahhwee for the dinner and that birthday song. LOL (although it was so embarrassing when u all competed against the other table) but nvm, we still won cos we were loud =p finally, we took a neoprint together. muahaha.
MYSELF
i finally acted like a 16 year old. hee=) dun doubt me.
lastly, lots of thanks to all who have made my 16 yr old birthday a memorable one.
i lurve my cousins. they spent my birthday with me. YAY =)
i know it's not nice to write only one sentence in the entry. so im not going to do that today.
I SCREWED UP MY biology PRACTICAL TODAY. i hate potatoes.
(see, there are a total of 3 sentences, not 1 =)
thats so obvious.
laugh it all away.
bye=)
today is sunday. not my favourite day of the week, but it is certainly the best day to study=) did not really study much cos i woke up at 11 plus and ate breakfast, watched tv and did my chi summary. speaking of chi, i really think that my hmt grades have dropped ALOT. getting an A seems a problem to me now. suddenly, i find myself lose interest and confidence in chi. NOOOO!! i dont want. chi used to be my forte in the past, but definitely not now. i love chinese, i want to do well for it, but somehow, things just go wrong. maybe, i really need to sort out my feelings now. on friday, cai hong asked us to write down what kind of grade we think that we can achieve in our o's (not our target). i wrote a B3 and i was shocked by what i had written. it looks funny but that was my exact feeling. as much as i did not want to write a B3, i had no other choice but to be honest with myself. for now, i really have no confidence in getting an A anymore. they say that things happen for a reason. maybe, i had slacked too much in chinese. my laziness had brought me to this stage, i suppose.
I WANT TO GET MY A1 for HMT!!!
the title sounds abit weird but never mind, i like it =) okok, realised that this is the first entry which has got a title(i think, if i remember it correctly). im typing this entry with the music from evon's blog in the background. haha, i lurve the music. somehow, i just addicted to it, cause it's nice and soothing. HOHO.
back to school, nothing much happened. we are now in our 4L1 classroom and i realised that i like it better here than the cabin classroom though i used to dread moving up. but never mind, i like our classroom. haha, it's probably due to my seat. changed place with shirley and i like my present seat now, hee, can "sleep" when im tired. got back amaths and biology papers today. not very happy with the results though i passed. =X but i was happy when i got back amaths, cos i was actually still confused on stuffs about vectors on that common test day and i really did not know what i was writing on the paper. but luckily, the factor and remainder theorem qns helped me. wahaha. we were given the time table for our prelims..argh. no comments, it is just a sheet of paper that constantly reminds us that PRELIMS are coming. and you know what, my mummy even went to the extent of pasting that sheet of paper onto the wall.. i asked her why, she said : " i want u to know how much time u have left, u better work hard". -_-. okok, so now, i have to face the piece of paper which says" PRELIMS!!" everyday. how motivating =D can detect the tone here?? haha, im being sarcastic. hehe. this shows that i have learnt sth from ss, history and lit =p
then after school, we had emaths time practice. it was supposed to end at 3, but mr quek came in at about 2.30 and we told him that one hour had passed, so we can be released. surprisingly, he said OK. wow, what a great teacher he is. haha, anyway, i did not finish that paper cos halfway through the paper, i got distracted and stopped doing it. ahahah. then me and xiang went down to find joyce, met mr tan peng chiang there and he asked us " girls, why are u all here? arent u all supposed to be doing timr pract?? " at that moment, i then realised that it was only 3, haha..then we just nod and said that yar, we finished. haha. i dun feel guilty =)
suddenly, i feel so sleepy. i want to sleep, and i shall do so now =)
everything in our present lives revolves around results. thats the main thing that changes people's mood, i suppose. in this stage of life, i realise that whatever we do, we cannot escape from our results. they are the consequences of our actions. YES, i believe in working hard and getting good results in return. BUT somehow, i began to lose hope in all these. i worked hard for my maths and sciences, but why am i getting back undersirable results? at least to me, i knew that i have studied and worked hard. such things make me feel so useless and ______(i dunno what to say). WHAT THE HELL. i feel so much better now after venting my feelings here.
to those people who got back their results ytd, i hope that whatever results will not demoralise or affect you. there are always people who care for u. getting unsatisfactory results doesnt mean that it's the end of the world. work harder and never give up. YAY =)
im not really good at consoling people. so dun blame me if i just leave u alone when i see u crying.
cause i think it's better to leave one alone in case my words make them sad-der . prelims are so so so so so near now.
AHHHHHHHHHHH! i hate the feeling of "stress"./
today is just not my day.
you liar.
i was being super paranoid today for some reason which i have yet to figure out. it must be due to the nightmare i had yesterday. when i woke up this morning, i felt weird. i remembered dreaming about something scary yesterday, but no matter how hard i tried to recall, all i could rmb was seeing myself running and running on a long road. it seemed endless and i was all alone. ALONE. the sense of loneliness was terrible. yes, i know. it must be due to that dream which made me so paranoid today. does it signify something?? i wonder.
yesterday was our school's ndp. it was actually quite a significant day for me. the last year i will be in the contingent. the last day i will be wearing that sj uniform. i thought that i would be over the moon when everything ended. it did not turn out that way. i was just feeling happy yet weird at the same time. perhaps an element of sadness. afterall, i had been in stjohn for four years. it may not be long, but it is not short either. four years of joy, sorrow and tears. i will always remember the kind of accomplished and happy feeling when we got promoted. the tears i have once shed over something. how much i actually dislike and dread sj trainings back in the past. i was sorry for even wanting to quit when i was in sec 2. thinking about that now, i really have to thank my father for encouraging me to carry on. he said that since i have already taken that step, i should not give up so easily. =) sj gave me memories. it was through sj that i get to know people better. i regret deeply that it was only during this year at the g5 camp when i realised that i actually like stjohn. i will not say that it is too late, at least i get the chance to write all my feelings down here. i thank everyone in sj who has given me memories. they made me grow stronger and realise more things in life.
i never imagined that there will be a day when i actually blog an entry about sj. never. time really changes everything. 4 years of so many things. so many memorable and unforgettable stuffs.
F:
Your Beauty liesin Contradiction. Controversial, unpredictable, and
never what anyone expects.You appearance and your personality are two
opposite things. Even yourappearance sends different signals to different
people. To some you may lookinnocent and sweet, to others you look mysterious
and intimidating at the sametime. No one ever knows what to expect with you.
You are a little bit ofeverything all mixed together. You can be watching
the football game with theguys one minute and the next out shopping at the
mall. You seem to be almost adifferent person every time you meet someone, but
at the same time you knowexactly who you are and there is always that one
thing that makes you you. Youenjoy keeping people guessing and people love how
completely unpredictable youare.
Some ThingsThat Represent You:
Element:Fire, Water Animal: Chameleon Color:
Dark Tones, LightTones Song: Everything by Alanis Morriesette
Expression:Half-smile
Gemstone:Opal Mythological Creature: Gryphon,
Half-breeds Planet: Mars Hair
Color: Red Eye Color:Brown
Quote:"Appearances can be deceiving."
Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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u know what, i came online with the intention of blogging a real decent entry, with so many thoughs and feelings to say. BUT NOW, everything is gone. i started blog-hopping and landed up in some unknown websites. =X AND now, im only left with fifteen minutes.
TODAY is the fourth day of the common test week. YES YES!! finally. we had history and chemistry papers today. I DID study for chem yesterday. BUT, i actually forgot the test for sulphate. AHHHH! add dil nitric acid and barium nitrate. WHITE precipitate insoluble and there i get my sulphate. thinking of this makes me feel like slapping myself, NOT on my face definitely. HEE, slapping my wrist will do. =) it RAINED heavily again today. and the air-conditioners in the cabin are making me go BRRRR. cold. but i like my seat in the classroom (although i used to hate it back then). i can lean against the wall anytime i want when i feel TIRED. hah. YAY, and the metal thingy is sooooo COLD. :)) time seemed to pass very quickly today cos the AUST MATHS quiz took up 1 hr 15 mins. HOHO. it was so long. almost fell asleep during the middle of it. BUT, i didn't. for the last 4 qns, i was practically just filling in answers which came into my mind at that point of time. most of them were made up of my FAVOURITE numbers =D i ate curry chicken noodles today. it was so so OILY and SPICY, have only myself to blame for not being able to RESIST the TEMPTATION.
5 minutes have just passed.
SOMETIMES, some things which happened just make me feel the sense of LOSS. scary feeling. GET AWAY FROM ME!! LOLx. im not letting history REPEATING itself, never again.
going to the dentist tomorrow. YAY. i have a date with my MUMMY =)